Two Weeks

It was two weeks ago today my world as I knew it began to unravel. I can't believe it's been that long. Today is a halfway decent day. J and I are doing lots of talking...really good talking, too. The other day during an um, intimate moment....lol....we looked at each other. I mean really looked at each other, and we both commented how it seemed like it was the very first time we totally had our guards down. I saw a real, genuine reaction out of J. He closed his eyes, let out a big sigh and said "and it feels so good - finally." That really touched me. It was just so real.

We have a really long road ahead of us. But right now, in this moment.....it feels so good. So real. We seem to be connecting and acting like we should have in the beginning of our relationship. Instead I worried far too much about being right, acting right....being perfect...being not my mother. He worried too much about drawing boundaries and protecting freemasonry from me, even though I was never a threat to it.